Creative Exhaustion

Before I get into the meat of this post, I want everyone to take a moment to look at the baby in the clipart I've attached there to the post.

Ain't he/she cute.

Okay, now that that's out of the way.

I'm tired.

I am currently smack in the middle of three writing projects and I can't make myself write.

I'm exhausted and I just don't care anymore.

Okay, that's not true, I do care. But here's the thing. I'm trying this whole "seat of your pants" writing thing, which means that I don't really plan out what I'm doing beforehand, I just write.

I like writing this way, but in some cases it really messes with my LOCD.

See, I discovered that I'm not happy with Chapter One of Goldilocks. When I originally wrote the story, I didn't reveal right away that she was on the run from an abusive husband. Then, as I was working on the revision, I felt that needed to be known up front. And I stuck to that belief, right up until I posted Chapter Three on Monday. It wasn't until then that I realized I'd made a mistake.

Alright, let me back up. Goldilocks: A Retelling is technically a complete story. It has a beginning, a middle, and an end. That’s just a first draft, however. Right now I’m trying to revise it and get it ready for self publication. While I’m doing that, I had this idea that I would post the chapters as I revise them. Chapter One, in the first draft, opened with the bears. That’s now Chapter Two. When we first meet Goldilocks in the first draft, we have no idea what her back story was, yet I spell it all out in Chapter One of the revision.

Huge mistake.

So that let the wind out of my creative sails. I know it's not too late. I know that the point of this is to post as I revise and then hopefully when it's all posted I'll have something ready to self publish. I know that now I'll just have to revise again. But I don't want to go back and revise it again. I mean, for continuity sake on the blog, I feel like I should go forward as it is, but that means that everything I do from here on out will be with Chapter One in mind, when in the end, it won't be there.

Good Lord, I hope I'm making sense.

Anyway, I may just continue as if what I have in for Chapter One doesn't exist.

But that's where I am now and that's why you aren't getting any new Norman Oklahoma today and why you probably won't get any on Thursday. I've hit that creative wall and I'm a little sad about that.

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